And then I read a new post on one of my favorite blogs (http://adviceigivemyself.com/2015/07/17/when-perfectionism-is-driving/) and "Only Human" by Christina Perri comes on the radio and it reminds me that this is part of the process. We bleed when we fall down. It happens. We get back up. We're a little stronger. We pick up the pieces and maybe add a few more sparkles and glue it all together, take a minute to admire our work and work on filling the cup back up with happy moments. An amazing yoga teacher of mine (love you, Raquel!) talked a lot in class about a process of putting broken pieces of China back together filling the cracks with gold. I think of that every time I fall apart and how much shinier I am every time I come back together.
I had a really rough day the other day because I was struggling with my old bank taking my money. I divorced SunTrust yesterday. We've had a questionable relationship since they held onto over $1k of my money last year for 10 days without an apology or any kind of interest or even responding to my request for an overdraft fee of $36 and a long term overdraft fee of $36 after 7 days. (let it go! Let it go!) Yes, I have learned the hard way that this is what they charge their long term customers for an overdraft. Even if it only lasts 24 hours. But they can hold onto my money for 10 days without any compensation. Then, my car payment (to SunTrust from SunTrust) gets pushed through to my account and causes me to be overdraft. They did me a favor and pushed it through because I'm a long term client. That's what the manager told me when I closed my account yesterday. Thanks, SubTrust for "helping" me in this way that not only allowed you to get the car payment, but also $72 in overdraft fees for the two transactions that were processing when that car payment pushed my account into overdraft. This all happened after I called to talk to a SunTrust representative about canceling my payment and he assured me that it would not go through. I'm not blaming them for my irresponsibility with my money over the last couple of years, but what I am blaming them for is their lack of compassion for those of us pursuing our dreams. I'm blaming them for all of the times that I've talked to one of their representatives and been told that all would be ok and then checked my account a day later to find that they've screwed me again. No more, SunTrust! You will not get another dime from me in overdraft charges or that $7 monthly account service fee that you randomly started charging me a few months back without giving me any kind of notification. Most of my problems right now revolve around money, but my SunTrust checking account will no longer be one of them. Actually, I'm just going to let go of any limiting thoughts I have around money right now. Want to join me? I now release my lack mentality and any limiting beliefs I hold around money and success. That feels better.
All that to say that I had a bad experience. I've been making a conscious effort to focus on my good experiences more than the bad ones. Every time I think about a bad experience, instead of going into a tailspin thinking about all of the bad things going on in my life (which is one of my old patterns) I like to think about something that I'm grateful for in my life. So here goes! I'm so grateful for the changes I've made in my life that have made me more free and happy. I'm grateful for my amazing private clients who I get to work with when they're in town and who included me in their morning prayer after our yoga session the other day. I cannot tell you what an honor that was to be included in such an intimate family practice. That's what yoga is all about for me. So beautiful!
Now I want to hear from you. What are you grateful for??
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